Learnig What Love Really Is

I thought about joining e5men for a long time without ever doing anything. I never really understood the purpose of fasting. I told myself (and others) I'd join when my fiancé and I got married last May. Our engagement was very difficult emotionally. We ended up postponing, rescheduling, and then canceling. Turned out I had a LOT of baggage lurking around under the surface both from my own personal past (including porn, promiscuity, etc.) and my family history. I happened to fast one day spontaneously because I hadn't brought my lunch with me to work as I normally do. I offered it as a fast and at the end of the day I felt a little purified. I joined e5men and began fasting every Wednesday. Fasting, combined with frequent Confession, have helped to free me. Porn is out of my life and my fiancé and I are re-engaged and waiting for our priest to ok a date. I'm learning what loving really is, thanks to God's mercy and grace. Thank God for our church and sacraments!

I work as a courier which takes me into many different businesses. A couple weeks ago I happened to be in a nursing home and the thought occurred to me to offer my fast each Wednesday for a different "cause." The first Wednesday is for my fiancé, the second for prostitutes (a sin I committed almost 20 years ago), the third for all the elderly in nursing homes, and the fourth Wednesday I offer as reparation for my own sins. I guess I was part of the Special Forces without knowing it. May God continue to bless the e5men/women and their families. Your testimonials have all been inspiring to me.

e5 Man, Arizona